The world is a vampire, sent to drain...
I praise the Lord for His presence in my life. I have had one of those weeks when I felt very distant from God. He invaded my mind and reminded me of His pursuit and presence in my life. I praise the Lord that even though this world wants to drain me of my joy and hope, that God sends His presence to remind otherwise.
I hate those times when you feel like you are "doing" everything right and you still a void in your heart. I have been going through that recently. That all this pursuit of others' salvation is so burdensome and not passionate, that the personal relationship I have with Christ is all work and no play, that God is this great friend that I have but in spite of my efforts, He is just not my Lord. I hope I don't sound heretical, but that is the feeling that I have been having lately. And then God in all His humility and power (amazing how He posseses both) sat me down and reminded me that I cannot base my pursuit of Christ around my self. That if I do I will fail because that is what Adam and all of humanity is prone to do. But instead I must pursue His unfailing love and allow that to be the backbone of my faith. Too much focus put into our faith rather than what we have faith in, that is where the power is.
God simply reminded me of His power and provisions and how He really wants a relationship with me. He does not want some burdensome legalistic, religious interaction with Him, but He reminded me that in deed, He wanted to interact with me personally. I praise the Lord for that! Pray for me that I will not focus on my circumstance when pursing the Lord, but rather I will focus on the fact that God does love me and does pursue after me as well.
Now, that is off my chest. Fundraising is still going well. It appears that I am right on time if not a little ahead. I do pray that it all comes in and ASAP. The waiting is hard, however, you never know, God may have me waiting to prepare me for something I do not understand yet. So I will remain faithful, however still waiting expectantly to go. Ah, the paradoxes the Christian faith produces. Thanks for the prayers and have a great week.
I hate those times when you feel like you are "doing" everything right and you still a void in your heart. I have been going through that recently. That all this pursuit of others' salvation is so burdensome and not passionate, that the personal relationship I have with Christ is all work and no play, that God is this great friend that I have but in spite of my efforts, He is just not my Lord. I hope I don't sound heretical, but that is the feeling that I have been having lately. And then God in all His humility and power (amazing how He posseses both) sat me down and reminded me that I cannot base my pursuit of Christ around my self. That if I do I will fail because that is what Adam and all of humanity is prone to do. But instead I must pursue His unfailing love and allow that to be the backbone of my faith. Too much focus put into our faith rather than what we have faith in, that is where the power is.
God simply reminded me of His power and provisions and how He really wants a relationship with me. He does not want some burdensome legalistic, religious interaction with Him, but He reminded me that in deed, He wanted to interact with me personally. I praise the Lord for that! Pray for me that I will not focus on my circumstance when pursing the Lord, but rather I will focus on the fact that God does love me and does pursue after me as well.
Now, that is off my chest. Fundraising is still going well. It appears that I am right on time if not a little ahead. I do pray that it all comes in and ASAP. The waiting is hard, however, you never know, God may have me waiting to prepare me for something I do not understand yet. So I will remain faithful, however still waiting expectantly to go. Ah, the paradoxes the Christian faith produces. Thanks for the prayers and have a great week.
posted by Adam Jones at 9:11 AM
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